My mother, who didn't appear in the camera,, was taken as the first angle of view, and the conflict was expressed by my action reaction after the prompt or warning sound of her walking and knocking on the door. The works is a nostalgic style with yellow hue, because it shows some memories. At the beginning, the sound of high-heeled shoes hitting the floor was the sound that I was always afraid of.
The reason why I want to put it at the beginning is to emphasize a paternalistic majesty and the uneasy feeling I felt before the door was opened. The door in this video is a door with its lock core removed. The hole in the lock can facilitate them to supervise whether I am studying or not, and can enter my room at any time. The door has become a symbol of parental authority.
The exaggerated sound of book turning is the sound I made specially to cater to their hopes, but it is precisely the sound I hate most. Reading blindly suppresses a teenager's pursuit of famous stars, fashion and freedom. Therefore, in my works, it can be seen that the emotions generated by the contradiction between paternalistic pressure and things I like constantly accumulate during the opening and closing of the door and being monitored. In the end, I was angry after being monitored for the endorsement, and closed the door heavily to show the climax of emotions and contradictions.
灵感源于我的成长经历。父母以爱之名对我进行监视与控制，因为在他们的眼中，我是他们的私有财产。但对我而言，这是一种用爱绑架个人自由的行为。作品以门为主线，通过门的开关实现场景转换，串联起学习、听歌、打游戏、玩手机、追剧、睡觉、化妆等画面。
未在镜头中露面的母亲被设定为第一视角，通过她走路、敲门的提示音或警告声后我的动作反应来表现冲突。作品采用怀旧风格的黄调色调，因为它呈现的是一些记忆片段。开头高跟鞋敲击地板的声音，是我曾经最恐惧的声音。
将其置于开头，是为了强调一种家长式的威严，以及门被推开前我内心的不安。视频中的门是一扇被拆除锁芯的门，锁孔便于他们监督我是否在学习，也能随时进入我的房间。这扇门成为了父母权威的象征。
翻书的夸张声响是我刻意迎合他们期望而制造的声音，却恰恰是我最厌恶的声音。一味读书压制了青少年对明星、时尚和自由的追求。因此，在我的作品中可以看到，家长式压力与我喜爱事物之间的矛盾所产生的情感，在不断开门关门和被监视的过程中持续累积。最终，我在被监视代言后愤怒地重重摔门，展现了情绪与矛盾的高潮。
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